Some of you know, but most don`t. I have suffered from extreme clinical depression. I have engaged in suicidal thoughts and actions. My first episode was at the age of 12. Then 15, 19, and 24. After the birth of my second child (at 33), I succumbed to postpartum depression. It was the most terrifying because although I was begging people for help, it seemed that no one listened; that they dismissed it as "baby blues". In the years since, I have worked very hard with multiple psychiatrists at CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) which, along with medications that I take daily, keeps me healthy. I`m sharing this in the hope that someone who is suffering will know that they are not alone. There is a way through, and it starts with being honest with yourself that you are not "ok". Don`t just tell someone, tell everyone. Especially your doctor. Most of your friends and family are not equipped to handle this. Keep looking until you find someone who is.?